many doctor visits & 4 blood test....in a month.

can i get anymore sick?!
on top of mono, ear infections, throat infections, bad colds and abnormal thyroid levels,
i now have pre-diabetes.

ill start from the beginning...
i went to the specialist yesterday morning because when testing for mono, they found my thyroid levels were high. i still dont know what the heck a thyroid is, but they made me where a hospital gown and it sucked. anyways, the levels were normal for the weight i am right now, so that was no concern, but the doctor diagnosed me with pre-diabetes and is testing for diabetes. meaning i need to have yet another blood test next wednesday. i have to fast for 8 hrs before the test. i researched pre-diabetes because i didn't get it and basically this is what i found...

"In pre-diabetes, blood glucose levels are higher than normal but not high enough to be characterized as diabetes. However, many people with pre-diabetes develop type 2 diabetes within 10 years. Pre-diabetes also increases the risk of heart disease and stroke. With modest weight loss and moderate physical activity, people with pre-diabetes can delay or prevent type 2 diabetes."

if i don't have diabetes yet, it looks like no more sugar for me for a long long time. i mean, i knew i had to loose weight, and i dont look as heavy as i actually weigh, but i was shocked to learn because im overweight i might have diabetes THAT IS USUALLY IN 40+ YEAR OLD ADULTS! it made me feel sick. pre-diabetes runs in my mom's side of the family, but i'm only 15 for petes sake! i guess im lucky. im lucky that i have a body that functions normally (most of the time) and that i dont have cancer or something very serious or life threatening. im lucky i have parents who take me to the doctors so i can get the treatments i need and doctors who know what they're doing. i could be in a much worse place, so i should be thankful. still, it would be nice to be normal. but im anything but.

sometimes you take what you get and learn to love yourself no matter what,
sometimes you take what you get and cry about it.

i think i'll stick with the first one.